First blog update in dunno how long.
Prelims are ongoing and i am totally gonna fail like all my subjects. I probably am going to get like 25 points for my O levels and end up going to ITE. Today was Math and I think I'm going to fail. However I think there is maybe a 1% chance of me passing.
Lit was as usual like crap, it's a good thing i'm not counting it. I hope for the first time I can pass History. I'm really sick and tired of failing. But there's just so much to study.
It seems like everyday I'm having a good time in school with Wendy, Kat, Sarah, Michelle and all the rest of the class. That makes the thought of leaving that extra bit painful. It's amazingly short the time we have left together. I want to be Sec 4 forever.
I had a temperature yesterday then it went away and then it came back again today. But it's almost gone now. I am definitely going to die for Chemistry tomorrow.
I hate being sick. I feel so helpless and restless.
First round of EPL games last weekend. I can't believe we lost. Our first blow to our title hopes. Great. On the first game itself.
I have been pushed down. AGAIN.
Sick and tired of giving in.
All of my life, in every season
You are still God, I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship.
I really miss her and most of the times when my mind wanders I'm thinking of her and what she might be doing.
I really truly can't wait to join her.
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Friday, May 15, 2009
So my mid-years are almost over, I just have Physics left but I know that no matter how much i burn my brain I will definitely fail. I have a good feeling about Math though i actually think i might be able to pass.
Anyway my Dad says it does not matter how badly how i do for mid-years just so long as i get the single digit for O levels.
I am seriously dying I will never be able to get these grades:
English A1
Tamil A2
Chemistry A1
Physics A1
Mathematics A1
Combined Humanities B3
That is like 9 points and i am definitely going to die.
There are many expectations of me.
I am going to let SO many people down.
I really hate life now and i regret many MANY decisions i have made. I wish i could turn back time but i can't. Oh well.
Some people can really be insensitive about other people's feelings and I feel like hating them but i know i should not hate.
Gossiping has become a habit.
I am currently in love with Richard Marx. Ok la not him but his songs...they are really great.
Right Here Waiting
Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
But how can we say forever
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it, baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it, baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you
This song is great! Go hear!
Music is a wonderful distraction.
Shocking things have happened.
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Friday, April 17, 2009
hello!School has been a blast so far!!!It seriously has been soo fun and i would seriously trade it for time ELSEWHERE. Today Sarah and I were so scared because we didn't bring our S.S files to school and then we were wondering if Alex would have brought it too. So then we consulted Kat about the situation.
Me: Kat do you think Alex would have brought the S.S file??
Kat: Alex??? She is so not sure to have that!! The only thing she is sure to have is a packet of Ballardo chips under her desk!!!
Me, michelle and Sarah: *bursts out laughing* like crazily!!!
It was extremely funny, because Alex is always eating those stupid chips all the time!!! And then yesterday morning, Wendy and I were telling Cel about how difficult it is to do inclined pull ups and then,
Ras: But ducky sure can do, she is suuuper skinny!
Cel: No, we were practising and she can only do half with a scream
Ras: * bursts out laughing *
I kept imagining that the whole day and laughing about it to myself!!! Seriously, and just now when i was typing about Alex and the chips thing, I toootally started laughing out loud and Wendy and Sarah got so freaked!!Haha. GOOD TIMES.(there are a few other ppl in the com lab giving me stares too)
Sarah and Kat combined are the biggest freaks in the world and they are EXTREMELY FUNNY!!!
I am already sore alll over and i was just laughing so hard the pain THE PAIN!
OH OH we also have an imaginary friend called Chelsea.
Wendy tapped me and pretended it wasn't her(she always does this by the way) so then when i said "yes" to her, she said
Wendy: Hah? it wasn't me, it was Chelsea, behind you
Ras: *what in the world look* then *bursts out laughing*
Then later Lydia, Wendy, Michelle and I were talking about football and Lydia said,
Lydia: I like Chelsea
Wendy: Now look what you've done. Chelsea just ran out of the room crying.
Michell & Lydia: *what in the world look*
So now at times me and Wendy put out hands around Chelsea and walk about the classroom. Sarah sat on her once too, accidentally.
Sarah, Wendy and I dared each other to do different things. Sarah has to grab Poon's butt, Wendy has to grab Tham's butt and i have to wear an outrageous hairstyle to school. AAGGHH! I can't wait!!
Someone got really inconvenienced some days ago and I am secretly happy.
Not so secret anymore.
Oh well.
No INFOCOMM TODAY!!!
so i am going home to chill.
BYE!
Jesus we're living for your name, we'll never be ashamed of You!!!!
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Monday, April 13, 2009
The past month has been a whirlwind.
A lot of things have been said and done and i have come to a conclusion.
Everything has to stop.
And i've stopped it.
I couldn't resist it so i called today, but there was no answer. I have to WILL myself not to call again.
Everything has to stop.
No more heartbreaks, no more suffering. No more.
I cannot continue knowing that this has happened. Because it will be of no use. There will be no meaning to anything that we do or say or what we claim we are.
Thanks for the memories, because the memories are the things which are going to get me through.
It's been a whirlwind this past month, but there will be no more. This IS for the better.
Don't come running back to ME when it's all over for you.
Have fun.
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Saturday, April 11, 2009
Back then, i often used to get irritated or annoyed when that call or text came, but now, i yearn for those moments.
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